I just want to be thin

I want to be one of those people who have a thin body, and can eat what they want. Is that too much to ask? Yes, I thought as much. I suppose if I was like that, then I'd have to give up my winning personality or something.

I had a really weird "mental-day" today, and struggled a lot with food choices.

We camped this weekend, and was up 2 lbs. this morning. With Halloween (and three parties (2 for school, one with friends)) this week, I just sort of figured that this week was a bust, and I'd kind of have a "free" week. Not FREE like "eat whatever the hell you want," but "free" like...not counting points, and just taking what I get kind of week.

So I had to run an errand after school today, and called P to tell him. I mentioned that I was going to run through McD's on my way. He (very nicely...not judgmentally) said "Why don't you get something better for you than McD's? That has a lot of fat in it, that you probably don't want...."

He was totally right...but I got upset by the change in plans. (Isn't that stupid?) I wasn't even mad at him, but I realized that I was PLANNING to eat bad today just because the rest of the week is going to be "difficult." Today had nothing going on that would effect my eating, or was a social event like a party...yet I was OK with choosing to make bad decisions.

This is just hard, and it sucks. I hate all the mental hoops (to jump through) that exist. Sometimes I just want to eat junk because I know how. Eating healthy takes a lot of thought, and sometimes I just don't wanna!

Breakfast:
Peanut sweet/salty 4 pts.

Unplanned snack:
1 fig newton bar 1 pt?
1 little pkg. animal crackers (Stouffer) 2 pts?

Lunch:
9 triscuits 3 pts.
1 oz. cheese 3 pts.
Quakes 2 pts.
Popcorn (Have to look up) I'm gonna say 4...I had the whole bag

Dinner:
Hamburger helper 7 pts.
bread 2 pts.
butter 1 pt.
H'ween candy 3 pts.

Daily total 32 points I think.
Flex points used 8 pts.

Crap. I just ate like 10 Thin Mints. Add some more points to my total. I wonder if I'm PMSing?

Who's the worst dieter ever!?!?

ME!

I took a "pass" on weighing this weekend. I'll weigh next week. Promise!

Early weigh-in

Hey T...we're camping this weekend, so I weighed in this morning. I am still 194, so I stayed the same this week.

Hope you have a nice weekend!!! XOXOX

Total weight loss: 16 lbs.

Doing ok--but HUNGRY!

UGH! Dieting SUCKS! LOL

Breakfast
granola bar--2 pts

Lunch
Panini--6 pts
granola bar--2 pts

Snack
pudding--1 pt

Dinner
Chicken philly cheese sub--11 pts
fries--4 pts

Daily total--26 pts

Thursday - C

Breakfast:
Breakfast Cookie 3 pts.

Lunch:
Triscuits 3 pts.
Cheese 3 pts.
Salty/Sweet Peanut Bar 4 pts.

Dinner:
Chicken Club Panini 7 pts.

Total so far: 20 pts.

Am I doing OK???

HELL NO!
I suck. S U C K. SUCK!

Kyle has been home from work the last 3 days with a horrible cold and a major rash all over his body. Guess what?!? It's fun to eat during the day with a sick husband! I drop the kids at school and run through the drive through to pick us up breakfast. Yesterday (the one day I didn't bring home b-fast) we were at the dr and then the pharmacy...and we were hungry..so we ran through the drive through for lunch.Last night, the kids wanted KFC for dinner--sounded good to me..so we had that. Monday night, we had no groceries..so more take out. Today..I was out running around with mom and we stopped for lunch. It's been days and days and days of fast food and restaurant food.

This weekend, Chelsea is coming in town from TX ...I am meeting them for lunch at Bravo on Friday afternoon. Saturday, we are having a party to celebrate Tony's b-day (oct 25), her b-day (Nov 1) and my b-day (Nov 3)--so there will be Pizza and cake then.

If I would get off my ass and exercise--I would feel less bad about my un-healthy eating.I just can't seem to get (back) in the right frame of mind.

Kyle goes back to work tomorrow...and we have groceries. I think tomorrow will be a good day. I'll try really hard to keep within my points...even with the special stuff this weekend.

*SIGH*

Junk Food Jones

I'm seriously jonesing for some junk. Everywhere I turn there is Halloween candy, and yummy Fall desserts like pumpkin pie, etc. I know I can have these things...but I hate to give up my points for them. Even if I count the points, I kind of feel like I'm "cheating" when I eat them. I actually ate a handful of Reese's Pieces today, just because I felt like if I didn't eat some junk (isn't that pitiful?) that I was gonna get really mad, lol!

I've been journaling my food the last couple days, but I'd just been really busy and hadn't gotten online.

You doing OK, T?